My life has been a whirlwind as of late. Between the fact that I have had to push myself to earn the Masters degree I currently have, and all the transitional issues I had getting back home to Illinois. It has been a full on plate for me for a bit.
However, having graduated with my MSc. in Sports Health Science is something that I am very proud about. I literally pushed myself in every avenue and every way I could. I studied so much for the final comprehensive, and then I missed a question which I thought I knew well. Apparently, I didn't know enough. I was disheartened. Down in the dumps at best, but you know what I studied again another 3 months and took my retake. I passed, and was excited to graduate. I got my Diploma and was like... Wow Luis... When will you be proud of yourself. Let me explain.
As I may have said in the past, I have had issues in school since an early age. I struggled to keep up with the norm in much, but there were always signs of brilliance. On standardized exams I always tested grade levels higher than I was supposed to, but then when it came to actual school work... well... I really had little interest. It bored me. Yes I wanted to do well, but it just was so dumb to me to sit in one individual place for such a long time and read. Why couldn't we experience, or have someone read to use about it? Anyways, I had many of my teachers tell me I would fail school and never amount to anything. Went through High School, no issue, College no issue really. Yet I felt empty. I did massage school because it was and is my passion, but again ran into terrible teachers. I decided once I got into a role of a teacher I would never be THAT person.
I finished massage school at the top of my class, and took boards. Passing on the first try. Since that time I have had much hardship. Brought on by poor choices on my end, and listening to the wrong people. Mental abuse to the max on many ends. I suffered and turned to supplements and fad diets on many levels to satisfy the nature of the beast I had inside me. Yet... it did nothing but make me worse. To the point I was clinically depressed, alone, and in a program that beat me down. While I loved the discipline, it was not what I signed up for. I eventually decided to leave the program and pursue what I had wanted from the start. Against everyone else's wills and judgement. I went on this journey. You know what though I didn't leave the baggage behind. I carried it with me through the program. At the point when I started the MSc. I had very little vision coordination in my left and right eye. I could not read for more than 5 minutes without a complete burn out of my eye muscles. No one not MD, DO, Neuro, DC could figure it out. Everyone had their diagnosis, but only one was able to help me. I will treasure this man always in my life. He always made me feel I had some value, and was like a dad to me while I was away. Along with my brothers in the church I received so much love that I needed.
I got back to myself, I started to rehab and train to be better physically, mentally and emotionally. Yet, I still had the baggage. It was not until recently (a year ago) I met an angel of a gal whom changed my life and helped me heal in every way possible. She was the image of God in my life. She told me "Lu one day you will see what I see everyday." I have started to see it now. I see the amazing man I have become, and I am proud of who I am. Yes, I have had difficulty and pain, but who doesn't have that in life. We were not promised a painless life, but a life we could define ourselves in.
Fast forward to today. I have gotten back on all aspects. I am finishing my Health Coaching certification with Institute of Integrative Nutrition, and with MSc. in hand am considering my options. All these details aside I want you to know this.
NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP!
In a world of talking heads, propaganda, and misinformation the most difficult thing to do is be yourself. Never give up on yourself, on helping people, loving people, and most of all being whom you truly are inside. You are an individual. Live it as such. What you emit you attract, so emit love even in difficulty.
Peace and Love
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